When I first raised my Kundalini, I felt terrible fears caused by my ego. My fears are about abandonment, intimacy, trusting others, and of being hurt again, caused by my childhood experience. My existing fears were intensified by my Kundalini to the point of experiencing horrible anxiety attacks. There were days I thought that I would just give up.
Each day I persevered, working through each fear. I used aversion therapy to confront my fears, and to touch the pain underlying my fears. The first layer of this fear was rage that I had to release. The next layer was the pain. I suspect there are many more layers of pain beneath as well. The analogy is the onion. The rage is the skin of the onion, then there are many more layers beneath that is pain.
What I have found is that when I began to release the rage and underlying pain, the fears in my life began to go away too. I stopped being afraid to make friends, to speak in public, to let people into my life, to tell people how I really feel, and to tell all of you about my life, pains, and fears. I even stopped worrying about my future, and know that I will be okay no matter what happens to me. It is the most liberating experience of my life, and you can experience this too. ~ Peace and light to you, Brooke (Copyright 2012 Kundalini Spirit)