As I was driving today, I wondered why I constantly fear being left by my lovers, that he didn’t really love me, and that he will leave me for another. It then came to me in a flash. I don’t feel worthy of being loved. Deep down in my heart, there is a gaping hole, buried in that hole is the belief that I am not good enough or that I am a bad person that is why I was not loved as a child. This buried grief from childhood has left me insecure and afraid as an adult. This realization left me speechless and sad; as I swept, I tried to comfort myself by telling myself that this is the first step to healing.
There are times in our lives that we come to realize things about ourselves. These are things that others see very clearly, like our lovers, boyfriends, and husbands. It is not something that we see clearly. We cannot heal our pain until we first acknowledge that there is pain. Now, we continue our journeys to heal that pain by giving ourselves love everyday, and reminding ourselves that we are all worthy of love, and that we are all good deep down inside. Love you! ~ Brooke (Copyright 2012 Kundalini Spirit)